I am so grateful to my group for helping me to examine more clearly what motivates me toward my goals. I did not find it hard to articulate my goals, but it wasn’t until our group discussion that I really thought about what made those goals so important for me.
There have been a few times in my life when I have been deeply hurt by someone whom I loved deeply (my parents) or respected greatly (my superior in the novitiate). These were people acting in accord with their Catholic beliefs. I was left to wonder how can my Catholic faith be such a source of pain and grief and wound me so deeply. I abandoned my practice of the faith for a while as I searched for answers. Ultimately I realized that what I believed the church was meant to be could only happen through the actions of the body of Christ and I was a part of the body of Christ.
I have only recently shared some of these wounding experiences with some family and close friends, having repressed some of the memories for many years. That has been healing and brought a feeling of relief and freedom that has been so affirming for me.
Through conversations this past week with some family and friends I felt the Spirit moving and giving me concrete opportunities to take some of the actions to which I committed in my response. I feel energized and comfortable that God is working with me and through me. God is also working through and with this group and my parish community and I feel so blessed to be supported by both.