MY GOAL: JOY
“Joy is the infallible sign of the presence of God.”
-Teilhard de Chardin
- I think living out your true vocation is about finding daily joy while utilizing the gifts God gave you to help transform the world. I want to use my gift to empower the people of God to put God’s love in action! I want to do this by honing my ability to preach. With this, I want to become a voice of hope and challenge in our church. A voice from the minority that helps give a voice to the parts of the body that are often overlooked and forgotten. A voice that engages young Catholics to make their faith come alive!
THE BENEFITS: Having Christ light shine through me!
- I want to shine with the light of Christ! I believe God has given me the skill set to do so, but I’ll need to find confidence to use my voice without fear/ hesitation.
- Finding the peace of mind and heart to know that I am exactly where I’m supposed to be. Doing the work I was called to do.
- I will wake up in a career that gives me daily energy and life to actually make our Church the place we claim it to be.
- I will get to work to transform the church into the community we aim for it to be instead of the place our complacent can allow it to become.
- JOY! DANCING! COMMUNITY! JUSTICE! HOPE!
- Life in a diverse city full of life where I can build true community and fight for social justice issues.
THE OBSTACLES TO OVERCOME: Self-Doubt, Fear, and the Time!
- Self- Doubt – I often lack confidence in my abilities. No matter how much I succeed, I tend to focus on the moments when I missed the mark. In this way, I am a true perfectionist. I have many dreams, but what if I am not the one they are meant for? What if I am not capable of things I hope and aim for?
- Fear. I fear failing in a million ways. What if I am unable to complete my doctorate? What if while on the looooong journey to completion I lose sight of my goal and never get my PHD? What if I move to a new place and feel alone? I know community is a key part of me discovering God and finding my voice. What if I never find that supportive and challenging community? What if I get my degree and do not find a job or chance to utilize it? What if the process for this degree sends me on an endless and aimless search with no clear destination? I have so many fears, and the answer is that I may have to face them all and still move forward to achieve God’s work in me.
- Time. There never seems to be enough as the summer continues to slip away! I plan to finish my applications by July 19th when the next school year begins.
THE SKILLS AND KNOWLEDGE I WANT TO ACQUIRE: My Doctorate!
- A doctorate in preaching- It is my hope that a doctorate in preaching will help open doors for me that can often be closed to women in the church. I also hope that it helps me cultivate my voice as well as find ways to make my voice known. Also,I hope simply having a PHD as a black woman in the Catholic church could be a testament to young people in the minority community of what we are capable of and that our voice matters.
THE PEOPLE AND GROUPS TO WORK WITH: Finding TRUE Community!
- I think I am still searching for true community! I think this journey takes inner work. It starts with knowing who I am and being in spaces that I am called to be. From this, I can live authentically and find people who help bring out the best in me. I hope for a community of people who believe in me when I fail to believe in myself. Family, good friends,and a faith community to lean on and redirect me toward God when I lose my way!
MY PLAN OF ACTION & DEADLINES: So much work, so little time!
- Complete applications to my top graduate schools choices: Emory, Vanderbilt, Aquinas, and others. I have 3 weeks to complete 4 or 5 applications as well as prepare for the upcoming school year. Summer is slipping away, rest is not promised, and I worry that I wont get it done in time!The applications must be in before work begins on July 19th!
- Take the GRE and get a competitive score! This will be a dosey!
- Decide where I want to go, and follow God the rest of the way! Then, begin my new path in a new city by the beginning of the next school year in the fall 2021.