Reflection for Week 2-
Thank you to my Sycamore group’s wisdom and heartfelt words and questions to sit with. Thank you to the larger group and all their graces as well.
I am challenged by you all to listen even more deeply to my heart and think again about all the times that God has been faithful to me.
I feel challenged to think about anointing and being anointed. When hands were laid on me and I was prayed over and anointed with chrism, the Holy Spirit settled into me—my heart. I was a disciple of Jesus. I now had my helper and guide and I felt held. Like a stole, like a shawl, like a scarf, the Spirit seemed to rest on me. Maybe that is why the “healer’s hand” and the power of touch is so important to me. To lay hands and pray is one of the strongest forms of prayer I’ve experienced in doing and receiving.
I am looking for my words and voice still. I never thought I could or would preach. But I have been blessed to share reflections on my faith in a few settings and truly felt that my words were the ones that God gave me. I do want to be able to share my daily encounters with Christ with others.
I ask myself how do I meld one vocation with another or do I give up one for another.
But the hard part is that the church says “no” you can’t be a deacon or a priest, so then what am I even “wondering” about.
Hmmm a chaplain in a hospital, a deacon in my church community someday baptizing by grandchildren, a pastoral associate leading the way to embrace social justice, a doctor who prays, preaches, and puts faith into action and just loves. Hmmm. I look into the sky and say “Oh Great Love…show me the way.”
“Lead kindly light amidst the grief and gloom, the night is long and I am far from home. Here in the dark I do not ask to see the path ahead; one step enough for me. Lead on, Lead on kindly light. And in the night when I was afraid, your feet beside my own on the way. Each stumbling step where others have trod, shortens the road leading home to my God. Lead on, lead on, my God, my God; lead on, lead on kindly light.”
And ” Your Spirit O God is upon me. You have anointed me.”