The image of my call is to be the fertile ground ready to accept the seeds that will be sown and allow it to grow and thrive.
My mission statement that came out of a recent Ignatian contemplation exercise is this:
- To be fully present to people I meet.
- To see and love them as God would.
- To be open to possibilities and live in a stance ready to be surprised by God.
Why is this MY mission statement?
I would like to say it’s because I have an immigrant story, but the truth of it is, this desire has been planted in me even before I moved to this country. Therefore, I’m thinking the origin must have been because I felt loved in my childhood. I grew up in a family where my needs were met. Now, I do believe that our hearts are restless ‘til they rest in God, as Augustine is famously quoted. So, outside of lasting joy and peace that only God can give, I did have a good childhood. My needs were met but I noticed other people’s needs weren’t. I remember reading National Geographic in my tween and experiencing a sudden desire to be a missionary doctor.
I see now that my childhood’s desire is part of a bigger picture of tending to people’s needs…of giving them fullness of life. This is God’s desire! God has invited me to participate in God’s work. God has given me a love for people, community, and life!
I long for a Church that is more like an amoeba than a big ship. An amoeba is able to move and change its shape as it reaches out to those in need and takes them in. A ship is not able to change its shape or be quick in changing direction.
How can our Church be a ship and be like an amoeba as well? Where’s the both/and instead of either/or?
I think in its allowing small boats to float alongside the big ship. These boats are connected to the big ship yet able to move quicker and respond to its environment more readily. I think these small boats are the religious communities and the big ship is the Catholic Church institution.
Religious communities have that connection but they also have the freedom. This is what I’d like to do. I’d like to form a religious community for the modern-day disciples who have families. It would be made up of men and women who do not live together but are bound in some way to one another. We’d have various expressions of spiritualities but unified under one. We’d live together but not share one roof. We’d all have to give financially to the group. We’d be more inclusive yet have a distinct path for members.
Why me? Why this call/desire?
God gave me the gift of easily getting along with people and a love for meetings and getting things done as a group! I thrive on conversations and desire to belong to a group that gives a long loving look at the real and respond to it, as needed.
I realize that my creative talent is in the realm of ideas and concepts. Dreaming and scheming are verbs that animate me.